That One Time With Songs! -- A Saudade On Campus Life

They say saudade is unique to Portuguese, impossible to define in English. Nostalgia gets pretty close, but saudade is more complicated. It's the remnant of gratitude and bliss that something happened, but the simultaneous devastation that it has gone and will never again. It marries the feeling of happy wistfulness and poignant melancholy, anticipation, and hopelessness. It's universally understood by a cross-ocean culture with a constant feeling of absence, a yearning for the return of something now gone. -- Mari Andrew on Am I There Yet?

Songs linger to your mind better. I'm sure it's not just me who can quickly finish lyrics of a song within seconds of hearing the melody! Sometimes, not only the lyrics that come up to your mind but also the memories related to that particular song.

I've been wanting to write a piece about my campus life for the loooongest time! However, as usual, a) I don't think I have the time, b) when I have the time I do something else, and c) then I really don't have the time. Looking back, I didn't even set a particular time to blog. Sometimes I was just studying or doing tasks at night then I blog! This happened back when I was still in high school, though. That time, you really had little things to do and little responsibilities to bear.

Considering these two factors, I decided to combine them! I will be writing about songs that make me remember a particular time during campus time!

But before I start, let me put some background.

I just graduated from Universitas Indonesia, majoring in Accounting, in August 2019. It's been 5 months since I graduated, yet I am still happy that I still have that 'warm' feeling towards my university experience. Needless to say, the 4 years I spent at UI has been one of the happiest years of my life. I really got to learn so many things, experienced so many first times, got to know so many good friends (that I think will stay for life!), and discovered new things about myself. In those years, I have discovered and listened to sooo many songs that I think I am able to reminisce about the memories along with listening to those songs again.

ASEP 2017 in a not so short glance

ASEP 2017 is one of the pinnacle of my 2017!

Being an Accounting major doesn't make me lose my interest to the environment. I have always had keen interest in that topic, probably thanks to my high school years which made me so involved in Geography. Geography, of course, talks so much about the Earth and its future.

I was very excited when the announcement of this program came from my university's International Office. One, is because I feel like I can relate to the topic, and second is because it's! a! fully! funded! trip! to! Japan! Damn, I always read Japanese manga and watch some of their animes so going to Japan is really one of dreams come true for me.

After several selection process, I got the acceptance notification. I was really excited but at the same time concerned.. The program actually took place during my internship program at INKOMPASS. I wasn't sure if I was allowed to take 4 days off work to go to Japan. There were even thoughts of resigning from the program! :( But I was glad that I didn't because the whole program was history.

On August 1th 2017, my Indonesian team and I met at the airport. We had a flight on 12.30 a.m. so we were all sleeping during the flight. When we finally landed in Japan, Shioji was ready to welcome us. She was a lovely lady and I'm glad that she was our tour guide for our welcoming tour. She emphasized on 'Japanese time' so many times lol but we managed to get her trust, though. We went to Edo Tokyo Museum and it was very interesting. You see, I am an avid reader of Detective Conan and Aoyama Gosho sensei put a lot of Japanese history in his story. It was interesting to hear Shioji talking about Ieyasu Tokugawa, Hideyoshi, and many more. I felt like finally I understand what I always read. The museum was also very interesting with so many detailed displays of Tokyo history. BUT too bad I couldn't really enjoy my trip because... SIAK WAR is coming! Those from Universitas Indonesia must have understood it very well, it was a crucial moment for us students because we have to register to classes that we are going to take for the following semester. I kept on checking my phone and another friend of mine is busy trying to access the server.

After visiting the Edo Tokyo Museum, we went to Asakusa. I didn't know at first that this place was so iconic in Tokyo. I'm glad we had you, Shioji! The visit in Asakusa was interesting, we got to take picture in the iconic Senso-Ji temple too!

Finally we headed to Chiba that afternoon. I slept along the way as I was super tired, and I haven't even taken a bath :( In Chiba, we were welcomed warmly at AEON Mall Makuhari New City. The mall was super big and it would be my forever regret that I wasn't able to explore through the mall. They have different areas for family and even pets. Imagine how big that mall is! We were gathered in this one room. The Korean team was already there and after a while Malaysian team and Chinese team arrived. There was a presentation about AEON mall and its foundation and we were given WAON card. With that WAON card, we can purchase anything that we want in this AEON mall, with JPY 1000 limit, of course!

My dinner was great but it wasn't all pleasant. It was 7pm there in Japan but 5pm in Indonesia, which means my SIAK WAR is starting! D: I was locked in front of my laptop screen, refreshing my academic.ui.ac.id non-stop. Lucky or poor me, I could only access academic.ui.ac.id at 8.30pm Japanese time. Lucky because I could access it while being in hotel with stable internet connection, and poor because I wasn't among the first people who can access that portal. I didn't get all classes that I wanted but well, what's done is done. I could finally enjoy my Japan trip without (or so I thought) any burden in mind regarding classes.

The next morning we finally met other participants from other country and was placed in group. I was placed in Group F with 7 other people. They are Ingy from Japan (but she is very international!), Game from Thailand, Ke Yi from China, Phidor from Cambodia, Alia from Malaysia, Minh from Vietnam, and Jae Hwan from South Korea. I would be with them for the following 5 days.

Our first rendezvous

After a grand opening ceremony in Royal Rihga Hotel near Waseda University, we headed to Tokyo Station to take the Shinkansen. I was shocked to find that the Shinkansen ticket costs so much. I took the KTX in South Korea and in my opinion they are equally fast but South Korea only cost me a quarter of the Shinkansen ticket. But I didn't mind at all because the trip cost me no penny lol.

I gotta tell you that I was very tired after the flight, tour, SIAK WAR, and everything that happened on the previous day. I kind of missed the Jakarta traffic where I can sleep during the long jam, but the road trip was very smooth in Japan I didn't get enough time to sleep. On the Shinkansen I was seated next to Game and Ke Yi, so sorry Game that I slept for most of the trip! Hahaha.

The hotel in Sendai was very good. The name is Hotel New Mitoya and it is a traditional Japanese style hotel. Okay, so to be honest, I enjoyed the first dinner there but it wasn't quite what I would choose if I was to dine on my own. Jae Hwan and Ingy told me that it was a really fancy dinner and there I was thinking, "God I don't deserve to be fancy..." LOL. The beef and sashimi were very good though and I can still imagine the taste on my tongue!

The fancy dinner

Although feeling tired, I tried the yukata and went on some very short trip with Kemara, one of my Indonesian friends. I also get to chat with the Indonesian team and that really helped me cope with my homesickness.

On August 3rd, after that much needed sleep in a hard futon (seriously I miss my bed..), we woke up early to go to an oyster farm, Miyanomori School of Wood, and Matsushima Bay. It was a record that I was able to wake up at 6am although it seemed that Midori (a roommate from Japan) had tried so hard in waking me up. She said she nudged me but I stayed still lol. Probably I wouldn't go into detail about my activities on that day because I got reports to fill. It will be lots of work for me to write about the same things twice! However, some things are notable on that day. I was amazed by how Japanese people were able to renovate not only their environment, but also their own mental state. It don't think I, or Indonesia at its current state, could bear the same damage and yet come back as great as before, if not better. The Miyanomori Elementary School was super soothing to the eye, I would certainly want to have an education there! In Matsushima, a lady was telling us her own story as the surviving victim of the 2011 Great East Japan Tsunami. I felt sad after hearing her story, about how she was having a conflict with her parents on that poor day and never managed to say sorry, and some part of me just want to say my apology to my parents lol. I was also introduced to John (Kim Dong Hwan is his real name... I think? I forgot!) from South Korea and Yinbo on that day.

Oyster farm at Miyanomori

Miyanomori Elementary School

That night I was very tired but we had to start our group discussion. Our discussion was to be honest a bit confusing to me. It's hard to gather the so many ideas from so many heads from so many different background! I wasn't great in consolidating all these different thoughts into one idea and I too had my own version on how to answer the question asked. It was an interesting experience though to have that kind of discussion. I hope in the future I can have that kind of chance again which talks about the background I'm in, for example in Economics.

Our third day in Sendai wasn't as busy as the second. We went tree planting on that day! I was very excited because it would be my first tree planting event and I was glad that the tree planting wasn't just ceremonial. We got to plant for real purposes, i.e. that day we planted 1,500 black pine trees! Planting trees also wasn't as easy as I thought.. The soil was quite frozen and it was hard to dig through the soil. But I surely will be back for the trees one day. See you in several years, Watari-gun!

After the tree planting, we went on to watch Japanese drum performance. It was amazing, I'm telling you.. And the main reason is because the drummer were cute kids!!! I was very overwhelmed at how cute the kids were!!!! (being frantic 2.0) Next we went to Tohoku University and was given another lecture. I think the most interesting part of this trip is the disaster mitigation game. I could tell right away that the facilitator was Indonesian, hahaha. The game was also interesting. I loved being in that group since we can really speak what's in our mind almost thoughtlessly, lol. Probably it was because it was just a game that all people were able to relax and just joked around.

That day I feel so refreshed unlike the past days and I finally have this idea that.. I wanted to try the onsen! Since the first day, Shioji has been asking us to try the onsen but I just didn't think it was the right idea, yet.. I'm very reserved as a person and I didn't have the energy to interact with other people while breaking my own comfort zone. Thank God that day I felt hmm more connected to my Indonesian friends? That I finally decided I wanted to try the onsen with them. That night we went walking through the serene Sendai street at 11pm (crazy I know) in yukata while wearing bakiak (they underlined this word but I don't know what to call it in English!). That was one of the craziest thing that I did while in Sendai, one of the first crazy things, in fact. I would have another post talking about this! However, finally at 12pm we arrived back to the hotel and.. I tried the damn onsen!!! I was glad that I took the decision because I really enjoyed the onsen. Becky, the Chinese girl from my room, actually enjoyed the onsen very much that she took it every other night. She also encouraged me to do so, so did many other people. Thank you guys for pushing me!

Because I can't upload a picture of onsen??

The next day, we went back to Tokyo by Shinkansen. We had another group discussion at the Shinkansen but still I didn't think we reached some solid conclusion. We still had some hours left to discuss that night, but I still felt nervous. We still had our discussion at AEON Tower and finally we reached on some conclusion. I still felt that our idea is a bit vague; however, this is the part where I should thank Ingy! She's really the driver of our group and I was glad that I had her. That night at the hotel I finally knew what was really going on with our presentation and I decided to play a rather big part of our presentation. Yes, me, this introvert, was going on a role play as a tour guide in the middle of Kalimantan jungle. Unthinkable, I know. That night I also learned that Ingy was going to leave us very soon right after our presentation! :( It was really sad that we needed to part in such an abrupt way, but she really was pursuing a big thing in Singapore, I wish you success, Ingy!

Group F of ASEP 2017!

The group presentation in Kanda University went well. All the other groups presented really well and so did our group, I think! Miriam's group was chosen as the winner, but I personally was satisfied with the result. They really deserve it after their long practicing hours. Our presentation in Kanda University is the closing remark of our ASEP 2017 event.

We continued on a closing party at a nearby restaurant with performance from each country. It was fun performing and watching other teams. Finally, the farewell happened.. It was sad parting with my team, but I was glad that we live in an era when we can connect with each other! I will surely miss Ingy, Ke Yi, Game, Minh, Alia, Jae Hwan, and Phidor. Thank you for the stories you've shared with me and for the amazing experience discussing and dining together! I'm sad, though, that I can't contact Ke Yi as often as with the others because she lived within the Great Firewall, but I will one day really send you something, thanks for the fan, Ke Yi!

Thank you AEON for making this event possible. I really admire the commitment that AEON team has put into this event. It was such a well organized event. Do I love ASEP? Yes! Do I love AEON? Yes! Do I love Japan? Absolutely!

Looking forward for our next rendezvous, ASEP people!

The Apple of The Year

Hello, I'm back! I think some people already miss my posts haha.

It's the long holiday here for Universitas Indonesia but unlike last year, I'm not doing my 3-months vacation doing nothing! There are some highlights to my holiday that I'm so eager to share with you.

The first one would be my INKOMPASS intern.

This one has a unique historical background. During my useless holiday back in 2016, I noticed that some of my seniors were already doing internships and one of them being my senior in Studi Profesionalisme Akuntan, the organization I'm in. She was doing an intern at Philip Morris International and she stated that it was an INKOMPASS internship. Being a spontaneous person, I went looking for more information regarding this internship. I went a little bit excited and even made the reminder for next year, LOL. Suddenly on February or March, INKOMPASS team came to my university and I finally really applied for the program, although I'm being super pessimistic as the acceptance rate were very low.. It's even more competitive than applying to Akuntansi UI!

Miraculously, I got accepted! I went frantic that night, May 4th 2017. The announcement came to my inbox at 10p.m. and as a result I went to bed very late that night due to excitement.

UI Squad

The second one is my Korean trip.

In early February, I felt like I'm disappointing someone so I bough her avocado juice??? Weird I know but this led to a historical conversation.

The fateful chat

Okay so I actually just searched this and I was shocked at how plainnnn and so wacana-ish the conversation went. But we fucking made it true.. On July 22nd-23rd, we went to South Korea together to present our research paper. It seemed so unreal!!! I finally met oppas! But more to that later :)

The third one is my Japan trip.

Someone said that I took over East Asia, HAHA that probably really sums up what I felt! I have also aimed for this Japan trip for the longest time. Not that I aimed for this specific event though.. Back in 2015 I met this amazing student who also contributed a lot in shaping who I am right now. I learned from his Facebook page that he joined a fully-funded event in South Korea held by International Office UI. I was super triggered.. he went to SBS studio OMFG. That day I subscribed to International Office UI right away and have always hunted for a free trip overseas, lol. I waited for a year until finally there was this program that really caught my attention. A fully-funded trip to Japan! I remember that it was on March and sadly, the poster said that any prediction test for the English requirement is not accepted. Holy hell.. I haven't taken any real English certification test other than the first English Proficiency Test that I took during my freshman year. I emailed Mbak Amanda asking whether a prediction test is accepted, no answer.. I continued with my life then.

UI Squad (2)

Then in mid April, I was looking at the announcement again on Twitter! But wait.. what?? Now a prediction test is accepted! I remember that the deadline was approaching really fast and I don't have many days left. On the next day I went to my Accounting Department asking for a recommendation letter. Luckily the staff was supportive and Bu Ancella also gave the recommendation within the expected days. Thank you Bu Dian from Depak and Bu Ancella! I got the recommendation letter on April 29th while the deadline of application is on April 30th at 3pm. And guess when did I write the essay and motivation letter? On April 30th at 12pm. IT WAS THE FASTEST AND MOST SERIOUS ESSAY THAT I DID FOR THE WHOLE YEAR. I remember clearly that I wrote it in auditorium while participating in a seminar (which I didn't take notice). It was such a hectic week for me and I was glad that I didn't hesitate to apply because on May 10th I got the notice that I was accepted for the program! I want to dedicate two posts for this amazing program, so more to that later!

I still have my fourth and fifth, though. But let's just talk what has happened first!

All in all, I am amazed at myself because I happened to achieve so much within these three months. However, I also faced rejections in three things, which announcements I hear within three consecutive days. It was tough, but I was glad for the rejections because it made me realize the things that I should be grateful of. I've been taking them for granted honestly.. BUT LET'S JUST FOCUS ON THE NICE THINGS!

See you on my next posts!

Jujur Seru

Gue lagi buat laporan magang. Tiba-tiba gue merasa bosen dan capek aja, and I just felt the urge to write (finally) something cheesy.

Dari awal bulan Januari kemarin, gue magang di Otoritas Jasa Keuangan (OJK) tepatnya di Kantor Regional 1. Gue orang yang penakut parah dan sangat tidak inovatif HAHA jadi sejujurnya pengalaman magang di OJK kemarin adalah hal yang sangat berharga bagi gue. Dari dulu gue sudah punya keinginan untuk magang, tapi ketakutan gue itu bahkan menghalangi gue untuk apply. Gue bahkan pernah komentar di status LinkedIn orang tentang hal ini, lol. Sampai hari ini gue masih sangat berterima kasih atas kesempatan yang diberikan kepada gue dari seseorang untuk kegiatan magang ini. Big thanks!

Pengumuman diterima magang di OJK ini agak lebih lambat dibandingkan dengan institusi lainnya. Gue sampai khawatir engga diterima bahkan dan mulai pasrah kalau liburan kali ini gue akan kembali menyibukan diri dengan drama Korea (hahaha). Ketika sudah dihubungi bahwa gue diterima, pada tanggal 6 Januari 2017 gue disuruh untuk berkumpul di Gedung D Kompleks Bank Indonesia. Uwaa so happy (?)

Salah satu orang yang gue kenal adalah Iman yang sama-sama dari Akuntansi UI dan temennya Tito. Terima kasih ya, Iman, berkat lo gue nggak takut-takut amat di hari pertama. :') Meskipun kami sudah sampai 30 menit lebih awal, ternyata sudah banyak banget yang datang dan kami tidak kebagian tempat duduk. Nggak lama, seseorang sampai setelah kami. "Halo, magang juga ya? Ini jam 8 kan ya?" "Iya nih." "Oh, kenalin, gue Raditya, kalian dari mana?" "Kita dari UI, Akuntansi." Lalu si Raditya kaget. Ternyata dia Akun UI juga and that's how we met Siwo. (Raditya = Siwo).

Kalo gue ceritain ini bakal jadi panjang banget wkwkw karena gue punya tendensi untuk mengingat segalanya dan nge-retell per hari. So long story short, yang ditugaskan ke Kantor Regional 1 ada 11 orang dan setiap hari menjadi indah karena mereka.

Entah kenapa gue semacam menantikan setiap hari karena ada harapan ketemu mereka dan berkumpul di ruang rapat lantai 13 itu. Somewhere along the way akhirnya kami dipecah ke beberapa bagian dan nggak berkumpul di ruang rapat lagi. Gara-gara itu, kami jadi kangen banget sama si ruang rapat dan memanggil ruang rapat itu 'rumah', our lovely code name! Dan somewhere along the way juga, perlahan-lahan kami semua kembali berkumpul di rumah lagi.

Pengalaman magang ini akan selalu menjadi pengalaman pertama gue yang mengesankan. Akan selalu kangen rumah, yang menyediakan tempat tercozy buat ngobrol gak tau diri yang kadang suka offside volume suaranya. Akan selalu kangen diskusi buat makan apa hari itu. Akan selalu kangen nyobain tempat makanan baru, pergi ke GI di hari Jumat, dan delivery-delivery di akhir periode magang karena udah capek. Akan selalu kangen juga dengan kejutan-kejutan martabak dan cakwe yang suka tiba-tiba hadir di sore hari!

Semoga kalian, teman-teman magang gue sukses selalu, ya! Sukses untuk Bu Ayu, semoga cepet ketemu judul skripsinya, kan nanti magangnya di syariah wakakak. Sukses untuk Firsti di Austria, kita pasti bakal ketemu lagi kokk tamatin Westworld ya! Sukses untuk Siwo, Australian guy yang mau magang di "Australia", ga nyangka situ Hufflepuff hmm. Sukses untuk Iman, jujur lo orang pertama yang samasama tukang *******, jo. Semoga makanan lo senantiasa higienis ya hahaha. Sukses untuk Virgin dengan komunitas BaIm lo, jangan sedih ya Vir karena berpisah dengan spot tercinta lo di depan Bu Tati :( Sukses untuk Dinda, semoga lo ga lupa ya akan magang kali ini wkwkw. Sukses untuk Lia, gue ga benci lo kok karena suara lo yang nyeret-nyeret itu HAHA. Sukses untuk Grace dan Salma, semoga kalian lulus memuaskan tahun ini (soalnya judul TA udh ketemu kan ga kaya Bu Ayu wkwk). Sukses untuk Ghazi, semoga tidak mendapat uang transport ga membuat lo kapok magang.

Terima kasih juga buat Bu Tati dan Pak Dendy, dua orang yang senantiasa mengurusi kami dengan baik di KR1. Juga kepada Pak Pur atas cerita-ceritanya dan untuk Bu Duma serta Bu Sulis atas tugas-tugasnya yang senantiasa menambah ilmu kami.

Dan jujur, akan susah punya pengalaman magang seseru ini lagi. 

Di depan air mancur BI HAHA. Jujur malu fotonya.

Full-team bersama Ghazi

Bersama Bapak KR1

The greatest journey is yet to come

I've spent minutes on deciding whether I should capitalize the pronoun or not for the title. After some searches on Google, I've decided that the article wasn't making any sense to me so I'll stay with no capitalization at all, lol.

There are soooo many things that I haven't been sharing on this blog! So to get started, I'll go with my last semester. My last semester in college, that would be my second semester, went quite well, I'd say. I'm not even regretting taking Catholic class because there are things which matter more than GPA. And getting a less-than-A-minus is seriously worth it compared with the closeness with KUKSA. Hahahahahahaha.

Last semester was especially a hustle-bustle for me. I've got several events due that semester, two biddings which were very time-and-energy consuming, and a new organization to adjust to. The only thing that made me survive was probably the lack of tutoring classes, I got two less tutoring classes than the first semester. So, five additional free hours!

80% guess of me in PDD would be right

After participating in numerous events as the committee (most of them in Publication, Documentation, and Design division) I come to realize that your major in college is not your limitation. I had always been afraid since junior high that I wouldn't be qualified enough, that when I go to college everybody would have mastered the study materials, that once you've decided to master a major then there would be nothing else to do. However, I managed to keep doing my thing by participating in these committees. I can even say that my Photoshop skills have progressed so much in college (since I technically did not use Photoshop at all in high school). Not all of them were satisfying, but I got so many experiences and friends (calling them 'links' is so much degrading, I think) that I wouldn't have expected I would. I also remember that I loved to write so much and I even got to write an article here!

My commuting skills also have developed so much. I'm being more flexible and places are more reachable for me, huahaha. Much thanks to the emerging of transportation mobile-app and Google maps this year. The year 2016 sure brings me a lot. Next month, for the first time ever in my life, I will be taking inter-cities train!!! I'll go to Malang with some of my friends, the farthest place to go without parents ever for me! So, I'll make sure to bring the updates of my (surely will be) amazing trip here.

Lately I've been talking a lot about my college life on my blog. It's all because people's blogs about college really inspired me and helped me that much back then and I'm hoping to bring the same feelings to for other people. So, I'm happy to say that I'm glad that I'll be meeting some of these people in the new year. I feel like my voice can really reach people. My utmost happiness would be toward this one friend who really struggled with me together through those sleepless nights studying stuff online. Congrats, Angga!

Back

It's not that I'm not being grateful with my current life. It's a great life I've been living! I think I'm walking on the right path, and even if it isn't, there are so many great friends surrounding me. Friends that I think I don't even deserve.

Yet, sometimes you want to go back. Go back to those happy times which has caused a great impact to your life.

Not that those times were happier or my current life is sadder.

I just miss those times so bad I want go back.

January 14th 2016

Today is so something.

Minggu-minggu ini gue sibuk banget dan mungkin ini liburan pertama yang paling ga gabut, menurut gue, sih.. Biarpun awal-awal liburan gue juga bingung mau ngapain, ternyata tugas kepanitiaan yang belom kelar itu ngaruh banget, ya. Belom lagi ketemuan temen sana-sini mulai dari setiap jenjang pendidikan hahaha, ada aja acara mainnya. Minggu ini, udah tiga kali gue pergi dan jadwal gue (ea jadwal) hari Kamis ini adalah door-to-door mencari sponsor untuk Indonesia Accounting Fair 17. *prok prok*

Awalnya gue mager mager engga sih sebenernya. Gue males sebenernya keluar rumah HAHA dan capek bangun pagi. Tapi gue mikir-mikir lagi kalau kesempatan bisa ikut door-to-door ini mungkin tidak datang dua kali dan akhir-akhir ini gue lagi suka nyari pengalaman baru sih, hehehe. Singkat cerita, gue sampai di meeting point jam setengah 9 pagi dengan nebeng Kak Nadya. Ternyata beberapa rombongan ada yang belum datang sehingga semula acara yang harusnya dimulai jam 9 pagi jadi agak telat. Gue dan beberapa orang lainnya sempet mampir dulu di PP (which is so not college students' league :'D) Ketika kita balik ke meeting point juga akhirnya mereka nungguin kita lagi, akhirnya rombongan baru mulai berangkat jam 10 pagi.

Foto ala-ala sebelum kegiatan mulai,

Gedung pertama yang gue datangin adalah Wisma GKBI. Meskipun terlihat seperti gedung biasa, tapi ternyata penjagaannya ketat uga.. Parkirnya cuma buat mobil bersticker dan untuk mobil ga bersticker harus dicatet dulu gitu sama satpamnya. Hmm dan basement tingkat pertama itu mobil-mobilnya agak bikin jiper semua yaa.. Baru di tingkat dua ke bawah udah mulai selevel gt deh lol.

Hmm oke jadi sebenernya hari ini gue bego banget karena gak bawa kartu identitas apapun, gue lupa banget kalo di gedung perkantoran, kita mesti menukar kartu identitas dengan kartu pengunjung (kaya di sitkom OB itu loh guysss hahaha). Gue akhirnya minjem SIM-nya Vero dan ternyata dibolehin masuk. Mungkin ini masukan ya untuk para penjaga pintunya agar memerhatikan foto di kartu identitas (?) Tapi seriusan sih gue deg-degan banget pas ngasih kartunya gitu wakak.

Begitu urusan kita selesai di gedung tersebut, "Eh, ternyata kerja ginian boring banget ya, sepi banget gitu" "Mungkin ini karena bukan di ruang kantornya kali kak" "Hmm iya mungkin" that was a glimpse of our conversation while walking to the car.

Ketika di mobil dan semua orang mulai nyalain HP, jengjeng.. Ternyata di grup door-to-door udah pada rame dari sejam lalu kalo ada pengeboman di Sarinah. Tadinya malah masih dibecandain tapi ternyata beneran. Gue awalnya masih santai-santai aja gitu kan, ya agak takut sih karena bomnya di Sarinah dan gue di Sudirman. I've never been this close to the crime scene. Udah mulai ada intruksi untuk kelompok Thamrin mau gak mau cancel aja karena deket banget sama Sarinah. Kemudian akhirnya kita mendengarkan radio di 90.0 FM dan masih ada siaran gitu mengenai kejadian tadi. Gue udah mulai panik nih, gila ini kerasa serius banget gitu loh jir..

Kemudian dibilangin untuk tim daerah Sudirman terserah kita aja maunya gimana. Karena tanggung akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk lanjut lagi ke Chase Plaza (meskipun ini nama gedungnya Amerika banget sih hahah) dan pengecekan keamanan mendadak jadi ketat banget di sana. Jauh lebih ketat dibanding di Wisma GKBI bahkan. Begitu sampai di lobby Chase Plaza, alas, ternyata dua kantornya udah pindah semua.. Sumpah sial abis. Kita akhirnya memutuskan untuk ngejar lagi aja ke kantornya yang baru. Begitu sampai di mobil, semua berita broadcast bermunculan di HP :'''' semua langsung pada takut dan akhirnya kita ga berani untuk keluar parkiran. Banyak banget berita yang bilang kalo mending jangan keluar gedung karena di jalanan katanya ada pelaku yang kabur dan masih bawa AK47 now that is so fucking creepy :((( Gue serius takut beneran dan ngerasa insecure banget jadinya. AK47 itu mah senapan yang ada di Point Blank bukannya, kenapa jadi ada orang yang bawa-bawa beneran huee amsyong abis. Belom lagi ada berita kalo Palmerah, Kuningan, dan Cikini juga ada ancaman. Lol jadi gue ga bisa ke mana-mana dong????

Gue lalu pusing pulangnya mau gimana. Mau naik busway juga gue takut kan dan rombongan yang ke arah Kalimalang kabarnya udah mau balik duluan gitu. Tapi untungnya mereka akhirnya menyusul gue ke Chase Plaza dan itu gue udah membayangkan bahaya banget sih pas di jalannya jadi gue agak terharu wkwk. Akhirnya, jadi ada tiga rombongan yang ngumpul di Chase Plaza sampai jam 2 siang. Kita nunggu di food court dan sesungguhnya gue bingung sih kenapa orang-orang kantoran ini ga sepanik kita dan mereka masih semangat makan siang. Mendadak hari-hari orang kantoran jadi ga seboring itu buat gue, mungkin aja mereka lebih terbiasa sama situasi-situasi kampret kayak gini ya :'D

Akhirnya, perjalanan pulang yang tadinya agak menegangkan ketika dibicarakan ternyata berlangsung aman-aman aja. Jalanan juga tumben banget lancar parah dan gue sampai di rumah dengan selamat thanks to kak Raijol!!

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Hari ini, untuk pertama kalinya gue merasakan langsung gimana rasanya diteror, gils. Ternyata ga seseru yang keliatan di TV because the fear is so damn real. Gue bener-bener menggigil gitu gara-gara ketakutan hahaha. Karena abis nonton drama Korea, bahkan gue sempet mikir is this the right time to call my Mom and say sorry... *sobs*

Gue sempet mikir sih, selain karena sirine yang berdengung-dengung di luar, sumber utama dari kepanikan kita adalah broadcast-broadcast yang ada. Mungkin kalo gue ga pegang smartphone, gue gak akan sepanik ini kali yaa..

Tapi kembali lagi situasi mungkin memaksa gue untuk merasa over waspada juga. Banyak banget berita yang bilang kalo lokasi kayak Kuningan, Cikini, Palmerah, Alam Sutera, dll akan jadi target selanjutnya. Katanya ada 40 titik bom sudah dipasang. Bahkan, ada yang ngelist mall-mall target teroris dan broadcast itu ngelist semua mall di Jakarta :(( That time, I can't help but try to believe to all these messages bahkan yang paling lebay kayak 40 titik bom itu (but not the last one though, lol, yakali masa Margo City diteror juga jir). Seengganya akan lebih aman kalo lo minimal percaya dulu dengan diem di tempat lo berada gitu kan, daripada lo udah turun ke jalan ehh gataunya pesan yang lo percaya fix banget hoax itu ternyata beneran. Die abis.

Lalu, hari ini gue jadi sadar kalo orang yang nyebarin hoax dari awal itu nyebelin banget. Tapi orang yang malah becandain kejadian kaya tadi dan meremehkan semua hoax itu juga nyebelin.. Kalo beneran gimana.. You weren't even there. You'll never walk on their shoes lol. Ada juga yang bilang kalo ini mungkin pengalihan isu (jadi inget Pinocchio!?), tapi ternyata jam 1 siang ada berita kalo Freeport udah nawarin harga saham gitu sih. Kemudian, Gojek dan Grabtaxi menawarkan ongkos perjalanan gratis untuk tujuan evakuasi! Sumpah, ini mulia banget sih. Tapi gue mikir, emangnya bakal ada pengemudinya.. Apa mereka ga takut juga... (terus siangnya gue cek emang kosong sih ga ada gojek di mana-mana hahaha)

Di rumah, gue baru nonton video ketika ledakan dan demi apapun itu serem banget. Gue yang denger siaran langsung dari radio dan berjarak kira-kira beberapa kilometer dari lokasi kejadian aja udah takut banget. Gimana coba sama orang-orang yang kantornya ada di sekitaran lokasi kejadian?! Ngeri banget sih kayanya menyaksikan kejadian kayak gitu, di video amatir orang satu ruangannya udah pada panik banget ga berani liat juga, gue jadi mereka mungkin bakal trauma banget. Temen-temen di grup door-to-door sponsor jadi berandai-andai. Coba tadi ga ada yang telat, coba tadi gue ga beli makanan dulu di PP, coba tadi acara mulai on time, mungkin rombongan yang ke Thamrin bakal kejebak lebih parah di sana. Ada setiap rencana Tuhan di balik setiap kejadian, teman-teman!

Ini pertama kalinya gue ga bisa bodo amat sama suatu kejadian dan pertama kalinya gue merasa diteror. Kalo biasanya gue cuma sekedar liat TV terus oh yaudah, mulai sekarang gue gak bisa kaya gitu lagi, deh. There were actual people who are affected by that so I should show more empathy instead of just minding what happens in my world. Act of terrorism is so inhuman, I don't really care about our economic condition but knowing that this hurt people and take people's lives, it's SO intolerable.

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UPDATE.
1. Denger-denger ternyata yang nyebarin hoax itu salah satu stasiun TV ya... Duh, memang beda..
2. Gue emang suka banget baca Quora kan ceritanya. Terus tadi gue nemuin ini dan HAHAH ngakak, setelah selama ini gue selalu baca pertanyaan yang berhubungan dengan Amerika dll, ada juga lohh yang nanyain Jakarta!

   Dan ngebaca itu gue jadi ngakak juga sih. Ternyata emang serangan kemarin itu agak fail ya setelah gue pikir-pikir. Tapi gue harus bersyukur banget sih karena fail :')

Hello!

It's been super awhile since I last posted!

When I was in my hanging-period (you know, the period when you waited for the college entrance exam announcement..) I liked reading people's blogs about their college struggles so much. But then I felt somewhat sad because they kinda stopped updating their blogs after awhile upon entering college. Were they doing okay? Were they feeling happy? Were they still feeling blessed?

SO,

I just want to inform you guys that I am totally doing okay here, I'm seriously feeling awesome and happy here. It's just the tasks :') but some of those are the kind of tasks I'm happy to deal with. Ciao!

OTW UI! (part 2)

--bersambung dari OTW UI! (part 1).

Di hari Senin, gue kembali ke rutinitas awal lagi, les intensif! Agak merasa tertinggal gitu sihh pas les, ternyata Inten jadi makin sepi gitu karena sebagian besar udah dapet undangan. Seperti kata orang di blog gue, gak keterima undangan justru harus bikin lo makin gencer belajar untuk SBMPTN-nya. Makanya mulai hari itu langsung deh gue bangun lebih pagi dan mulai ngulang-ngulang materi. Pulangnya juga gue nggak main-main lagi tapi belajar lagi.

Gak lama gue tiba-tiba kaya tersadarkan kalo SBMPTN tinggal kurang dari sebulan lagi dan gue masih ngeraba-raba beberapa materi. Ternyata program intensif itu kebanyakan juga bahas soal doang. Efektif sih, tp gue ngerasa kalo gue mesti tau yang lain-lain juga dan gak cuma yang di soal, gimana coba kalo misalnya ternyata yang keluar materi yang sama tapi dengan pertanyaan yang belom gue latih sebelumnya? Kan keki abis tuh.. Untung gue inget bahwa gue masih punya sisa masa aktif Zenius! Iya, setelah 2 minggu gue belom gitu serius, gue mulai buka lagi webnya. Tiap malem gue pantengin video materi SBMPTN terutama yang teori Ekonomi bab terakhir-akhir, Sosiologi dan Sejarah, gue emang lemah banget di situ.

Gue juga pake buku kuning kecil yang SKS ituu, gue cinta banget deh sama buku itu, selain bahan kertasnya yang gue suka, isinya lumayan komplit. Tiap nonton video malem-malem, pasti deh gue siap stabilo, bolpen, sama itu buku kuning. Tiap ada materi baru gue cari bahannya di buku terus gue stabiloin, kalau belom ada baru gue tambahin. Gue merasa itu buku makin sakti dari hari ke hari. (?)

Tiap minggu, Inten selalu mengadakan TO dan puji Tuhan kerja keras gue ga sia-sia karena ternyata hasil TO gue naik terus dari minggu ke minggu. Ya emang sih TO doang kan gitu tapi seenggaknya lo jadi punya kepercayaan diri tertentu gitu dalam menghadapi ujian SBMPTN yang makin deket.

Tanggal 19 Mei 2015, gue dan beberapa temen sekelas memutuskan buat barengan ngeklik pendaftaran SBMPTN-nya, dengan harapan bisa dapet tempat tes yang deketan. Gue sendiri memutuskan kalau pilihan gue di SBMPTN nanti cukup satu aja, Akuntani UI. Nah malamnya gue on Skype bareng beberapa temen. Deg-degan banget pas mau ngekliknyaa!

Momen tak terlupakan nih

Dan.. voila! Ternyata gue dapet di tempat yang sama dengan 2 temen gue yang lain itu. Yhaa meskipun kita nggak pergi bareng, seenggaknya disana dapet temen dan nggak sendirian.

OTW UI! (part 1)

Halo halo! Setelah gue bernostalgia dikit tentang perjuangan gue di awal SMA, sekarang gue mau cerita tentang perjuangan gue di akhir SMA. Yes, tentang nyari kuliah hahaha.

Ketika penjurusan, gue milih jurusan IPA karena gue sendiri belum yakin jurusan apa yang akan gue ambil di universitas (antara komputer atau akun) dan kata orangtua gue mending masuk IPA aja karena katanya lebih fleksibel. Sebenernya ini mungkin cuma berlaku kalo gue mau masuk swasta, gue waktu itu udah tau banget lah, kalo di jalur undangan tuh kemungkinan anak IPA bisa lintas jurusan ke IPS keciiiiil banget . Tapi gue bener-bener ngga ada pikiran sama sekali untuk masuk PTN pada saat itu. Apalagi SMA gue swasta, jadi kebanyakan temen-temen gue pasti ke universitas swasta juga (jamannya masih mikirin temenn wkwk).

Tapi semua berubah sejak gue kelas 11. Kebetulan waktu kelas 10 gue ikut OSN, dan dari OSN itulah gue dapet kesempatan untuk mengenal banyaaaak banget orang-orang dari luar sekolah. Seakan-akan lingkup pertemanan gue tuh mulai kebuka gitu. Kontak Line gue udah bukan temen sekolah dan keluarga lagi, tapi ada anak dari luar sekolah dan bahkan kakak kelas! Gue inget banget waktu itu lagi seru banget momen-momen pengumuman SNMPTN 2014, tepatnya tanggal 27 Mei 2014. Beberapa kenalan gue yang udah kelas 12 ternyata lolos! Banyak yang akhirnya bakal satu kampus dan gue ngerasa, loh kok seru sih!? Kayak, temen-temen lo jadi ngga itu-itu aja tapi ada dari daerah-daerah lain di Indonesia gituu. Apalagi sejak mereka kuliah, gue jadi suka liat feed mereka di berbagai media sosial soal kegiatan kampus mereka yang ternyata seru banget gila. Dengerin cerita mereka jadi bikin gue memutuskan, oke, gue mau jadi salah satu di antara mereka!

Akhirnya di awal kelas 12 setelah memikirkan matang-matang, gue memutuskan kalau gue akan mengejar jurusan Akuntansi di UI. Angan-angan gue untuk kuliah komputer gue tinggalkan :') kayaknya gue bakal botak kalo kebanyakan ngoding wkwk. Gak gak serius, meskipun gue lumayan suka komputer, tapi gue adalah tipe orang yang setengah-setengah dan gak mau mendalami komputer banget. Gue udah serius banget mikirin hal ini dari hasil obrak-abrik internet dan akhirnya menemukan blognya Zenius. Komputer rasanya bukan jurusan yang memicu 'sense of wonder' gue :D Gue bukan orang yang punya banyak minat, tapi gue cukup yakin kalo gue udah tau kira-kira konsekuensinya apa dari menjadi seorang akuntan (hasil liat bokap nyokap hahaha), dan berdasarkan pengalaman, dulu gue adalah salah satu anak yang paling semangat di kelas ngerjain tugas pembukuan. Jadi, gue fix ambil akuntansi!