#Random 15: Preferences

When we were little, filling out personal information or biodata on our friends' binder was such a trend. I remember this suddenly because yesterday one of my friends posted her binder on Instagram and wow it did bring back memories!

This is yet another random thought from me.

I was just scrolling Instagram and I realized that during this WFH, I did buy or do a lot of things that I like. I like pasta a lot, so I buy so many pasta ingredients and explore so many recipes to make pasta on my own. I like noodles so much so I was almost always spontaneously buy noodles when my friends sell them (during WFH, so many people become sellers haha). I like dimsums and just now I bought dimsums from my friends!

Today, my idol has just released new songs. I can tell that I like their b-tracks but I haven't really
become obsessed with the title track. I can also tell that even though their MV is superb, I still prefer other groups' MV concept.

Linking this back to my introduction, growing up I wasn't someone who has strong preferences of something. When I filled the MaFav or MiFav part, I just add food that I tried before or sounded cool, I didn't really have something favorite that time, though.

I realized that now, I can finally have preferences over something. I am still a very agreeable person to the point that I think that this is my weakness. I don't know, is it my pacifist self over compromising things? Or just like favorite foods or favorite drinks or favorite MV, probably I should just try to explore more things so I can have better opinions on things, thus being less agreeable and more critical on things?

And like other #random tagged posts should be, this is where I will end this random self-reflection.

(Wow, WFH really gives me time to reflect on things and actually write them here!)

BONUS (added per June 4)
You know I love to re-read my own writing and suddenly I found this page on my blog where I talked about myself. You can see the cringe page here and if you are wondering why it has '(2)' that's.. because I have the original About Me version that is much much moreeeeeeeeee cringey. :)

SO I dare myself to ready that cringey post and oh what the hell how.. could.. I.. even.. think.. of writing that!?!?!?! It's soo sooo bad and self-conceited omg I don't know 10th grader me was THAT pathetic. Ew.

Why I decided to add a bonus part here after rereading that page is because I found this part:

excerpt from my About Me (1) that was so so so so cringey

EXACTLY! I wrote myself a biodata! And you can see there just how basic and mainstream my favorite things were... duh I clearly hadn't been exploring the world. Also 'profesi yang ditetapkan Tuhan Yesus' what the hell man hahahahaha it's like I gave up in actually deciding things on myself and wanted to just accept anything my parents wanted but justifying that it was all God's fate lol. Though not gonna lie that following what my parents wanted worked quite okay for me now, but just I really did not look up into any other choices at that time! Hahahaha.

#Random 14: Fangirling

This marks my third week (turns out to be) literally a whole-month of me becoming a fangirl of a girl-group!

I know the exact date because I tweeted this on that fateful day lol

EDIT APRIL 7 2021 OMG MY LIFE HAS BEEN A LIEEEE! Turns out I didn't get into Twice on April 7 but on April 13! So it's true then, when I first wrote this blog, it's been only 3 weeks of me being a kpopie. I didn't know why my memory associated that tweet with me watching their MVs though.. Probably I did watch their MV but certainly it was not the day Jihyo became trending on Twitter. Jihyo was trending on April 13 and I did add Twice songs to my Spotify on April 13, so the date matched. WHY did I think I tweeted that on the night I watched FANCY!? I would never know...

Honestly, I have never thought even once in my life that I will be one of those fangirls of a K-Pop group, not even boy-groups. I have always been the type to only like one or two songs of a singer but kinda find the rest of the songs unfit to my preference; therefore, I see no point in fangirling celebs. I never became a fan of any idol. I always had this inner belief that it is never good to become a fan of another human being, never attach your happiness to somebody else other than you, let alone someone you don't know.

Gurl I was wrongggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!

It started quite funny. One night I was working quite enthusiastically on my job then decided to take a little break by opening Twitter. I found out then that a familiar name has become a trending topic on Twitter, let's say it's X. I checked on Google whether X was the person I knew before (girlfriend of another boy-group member). I was right! I looked on the face and actually found her so pretty and so unlike mainstream Koreans. X is a member of this Korean girl-group. I actually love two of their hits since university (I also checked out their dance practice video too often) and I wondered, why didn't I notice her before? I watched the dance practice again and I was like "Ahh so she was quite chubby back then that's why" and "Wow how these simple things really change the appearance of someone."

Then I remember, one of my friends really loved this girl-group's newest song. I never quite got the "fun" of that song but I decided to take another watch of the M/V. Idk, this new song sounded so good that night! Their choreography was also so fun, so fresh compared to their old hits which I had liked before.

The next day, I wanted to watch their M/V again but somehow I got distracted and watched their documentary video in making that M/V instead. I got to know each of their members and somehow got familiar with several members. I also watched their live performances of this new song and it made the song lingered more in my head. At that time, I already recognize several of the members due to me watching their performances and their documentary. I still had difficulties though for several members, one of them is this member that kinda looked older than others in their performances. Let's call her Y.

That's step 1 in fangirling: differentiating most members.